I just wanna pour everything out here. So here i begin...
Sunday, July 3, 2011 || 10:33 AM
Where is the caring and sharing has gone too?!? It hurts me when the conversation about the stories is being shared in front of me when in the first place you are not telling me about it. It makes me feel awkward and while you and them were talking i was thinking what i should do now?! what should i react now?! and also my mind keep making clueless judgement. Questions and answers were running through my mind at that moment also. Sometimes i wonder who i am to you, and what do you regard me as? Were all the sweet talking and promises are fake? i wonder. What you thinking, stories or secrets you hid or not sharing with me , i will eventually know cause i know you too well that sometimes it makes me hate you at times. I feel like confronting you and ask you promptly why you are doing this to me. but i didn't cause it totally need a lot of courage. Are you grabbing attention from me? Are you making me ask? Are you making me feel clueless? (cause i am) Are making me leftout? Are you happy doing this to me? huh?! Sad plus disapointed with you. haizz.. There's more i wanna tell but my emotions are hard to explain in words. i just don't get it! sigh.